没有什么真正的感同身受，所谓的I know what you going through,I can feel
your pain,that’s total
It’s been a long long time that I never write sth. to record my
feelings so that I even don’t know where I can begin now …
想到老友记中phoebe 在医院in labor
瞬间有一丝丝感动，并说道，uhhh,sympathy pain.知道joey 越喊越大声，phoebe
started to thinking he was just trying to take her thunder.but
actually,it’s kidney stone that causing the pain.
There are too many unhappy things happened this year and I even thought
I could not make it through. And now, I am still on the way, still never
get out of my sorrow yet, but I am trying to get myself happier day by
day. The world is so wonderful and life is beautiful, I wanna see more.
Sorry to bother you again. Too mamy things are full of my mind recently
and I can’t find one to tell( who used to be my mom, but not now) . But
after last time I told you about my mom, I wanna tell you more what I
had been through. It’s about my dad. I haven’t spoken to him for about
10 years, even call him “dad”.
还有世界上一个未解之谜，究竟是女人生孩子痛还是when a man is hit in the
balls more painful.there is no way to find out ,cuz no one can
experience both. Also in friends,in the last season Chandlear also want
to find out this question but there’s no answer to that
|throwback Thursday|，obviously a bit of a different angle but this is 5
and a half months difference! the left was taken September 30 and the
right was taken yesterday! 👊🏻 I remember starting BBG and dreaming about
the day I would have abs! I used to think that if I ate salads and did a
ton of sit ups I would have abs magically appear, I still laugh at how
naive I really was 😂
However, there are much more people who are more tragic than me and I
actually don’t need to feel sad to myself. As for other really tragic
people, they may not feel a thing what I feel sad and upset…It seems
like I am just making some fuss without any illness and pain…but how
can I fix it? I am still down and sad…
I will never forget what he did to my mom at that night when I was 11.
He was drunk and came back home very late. My brother(he was just 3
years old) and I had been in bed but mom not. We were woken up by noise.
Then I found that they were quarrelling and fighting. More precisely, he
was beating my mom in front of me and my brother. That’s so horrible
that we were afraid and cried.
There was a girl who usually told me about her troubles in daily life,
sometimes in the beginning I can feel her trouble .At least I think I
can but then days after days I start to getting a little worn out I feel
like she’s full of pessimism.and I really don’t appreciate it and I’m
getting weary of it but now I’m thinking the main reason may be that
from the beginning I don’t really get the problem as she feels about it.
Maybe it concerns about the ways you tell it,about the people who
listens to it ,how he feels about you and how he feels about things .but
in the end I believe there is no sympathy pain for real.
change takes time, this isn’t something my body has developed overnight
or even within weeks! this is almost 6 months of extremely hard work! I
have really been trying to push myself this round of #thekaylamovement
! my eating hasn’t been the best but I have been pushing myself to my
limits in those 28 minutes and seeing my body change
I uninstalled WeChat from my mobile and later I even set it in flight
mode yesterday so that I could hide at my home, at any corner of the
house. I could hide everyone from looking for me online, sending me
messages and calling me…I just told two sisters of mine that they
could find me by calling my home telephone and they are both really
worried about me. I knew it and that’s the reason that I dare not talk
more with them…I knew this feeling too much! watching the person
grieving alone who you reaally care about, you can do nothing for him.
It’s frustrated. I knew it. I remember several days ago, Tem sent a text
message to me saying she’s distressed, after I had asked her whether I
should be with CHN, whether I should try again with him or not. I don’t
mean to let her down, but actually I bring her pain. Actually, she
doesn’t need to get down, but she’s down and this is because of
me…Like the thing I always think over, what can I bring to the people
surrounding me…It seems like I can only bring them unhappiness…I
always let people down…I really hate myself…And I dare not talk more
with two sisters and almost ran away immediately after leaving them the
words. Even so, I could still feel them worrying about me and I
destroyed their good mood…again…
He’s always drunk back home late and quarrelled with mom. And everytime,
I can see mom was really really angry and despair. However, she tried to
not relieve it. But that time, it really was too much of him.
not too long ago I was pretty bummed out thinking I had hit a plateau, I
was afraid I had reached my potential and wouldn’t be changing much
more. instead of getting down on myself I worked to keep pushing,
whether I had reached my limit or not I wasn’t going to give up and I am
so glad that I didn’t. recently I think I have overcome my plateau, I am
seeing more progress and working towards even more changes! I’m really
hoping that in the next few months before summer I can tone my legs and
work on keeping my diet clean and feeling lean!
I also uninstalled the game I play on my mobile almost everyday, the
Arena of Valor, and some apps relevant with it. I escaped from the
Internet. I stayed awake at night after lying on my bed for nearly 2
hours and I was thinking over whether I should find sth. to be my
belief, whatever Jesus or Maria or Bodhisattva…find sth. for my belief
so that I can feel I’m not alone when I was trapped…so that I can feel
I was not dumped…And I really began to think over that I would go to
the Shishi church next day…
Not only was he drunk back home too late, but he did something about
family too wrong to stand. At the outset, mom didn’t want to quarrel at
all. She talked to him about what he did was not right patiently.
However, he not only did not admit his mistake but said mom always liked
making trouble without a cause. On the contrary, mom is framed all the
time and he is the one. He’s yelling ,howling and abusing to mom.
What’s more, he’s always lying to mom. I guess no one can stand this.
Neither mom. Then, it turned to what I said at the begaining.
© 本文版权归作者 vino444
don’t expect change to happen overnight because it won’t, if you’re
looking for an immediate change you’re going to be incredibly
disappointed! @kayla_itsines mentioned this morning about the journey
and I think this is something we all need to remember. there isn’t going
to be a quick change, or a certain point that you reach and then give
up, this is a journey and it’s part of your life! make those changes
everyday and work towards your goals, when you reach those create new
ones! keep pushing hard and let’s crush the next two and a half weeks 👊🏻
Actually, today I stayed at home all the morning and made up myself
after lunch. After I dressed up and finished my makeup, I went to
U.Coffee and sat here till now, wearing my earphone and listening music.
I escaped the Internet nearly one whole day and I really feel it
helpful. I am not so anxious as before.
He beat mom so bad that it made my grandpa’s (mom’s dad) old illness
relapse nearly. To be honest, I can’t remember how many times he
quarrelled with mom. He is a coward, a liar. He is too irresponsible to
like a man. Nevertheless, mom never gives up her marriage, though she
suffered a lot. And she chose to forgive him everytime in consideration
of me and my brother. She is really a great woman.
I am so appreciate I got this app that I can write my feelings here. I
am now much better. Life is not esay…I will try to stay alive…I
wanna see more beautiful things…I still wanna see more…
But I can’t do that like mom. I hate him. I love mom more than myself
and I’m really dependent on her. She is not just my mom in blood
relationship, but my best friend forever. I love talking and sharing my
heart with her, telling her what I think and feel. She always know me
very well. She is kind, patient, considerate. She is wondful. I can’t
stand anybody hurts her and I will never forgive them. No one is
exception even my dad.
So you can understand how painful I am when mom’s ill. I don’t think I’m
really ready to be a grown-up. But I realize I’m not a child and the
innocent anymore when I can understand what elders said. Honestly
speaking, I don’t like this feeling. I don’t wanna be complicated
person. I was so dependent on her but now I have to be the one whom she
needs to depend on. I have to do it. I have no choice.
She used to wake me up by her cold hands during winter holiday.I
screamed, “MOM!”. Then she smiled excited and said” Get up! Let’s make
dumplings together!” Sometimes, she would turn on the TV very loudly to
wake me up and pretended she did nothing. She laughed at me when I made
food and burned the pan… But I always bothered her, “Mom, where is my
socks? ” “Mom, could you bring my pants to me? ” “Mom, have you seen my
phone? I can’t find it.” “Mom, I’m starving” “Mom, ……” ” Mom,……” But
now I can’t do that anymore.
What’s great about getting stronger on the outside? You get stronger on
the inside too 😊
I like cooking for her and washing her clothes and do housework during
summer holiday because she was exhausted off work. When I saw relaxed
from her face without housework bothering, I felt so glad. I always made
her fall asleep at summer holiday’s nights because my blattering. And
there’re many funny things happened between us.
What’s more, another reason I hate my dad is, to a great extend, mom’s
illness is caused by him. He quarrelled with mom again before the day
mom was ill. This kind of illness is a gradual change and development of
mood. So there is no way to forgiving him.
Whatever week your on what I can tell you is the change you are making
needs to be sustainable for YOU! This is YOUR journey!
I’m not a dark person but I really can’t forgive him. I know tolerance
and forgiveness is the best way to getting rid of suffers and pains, but
not for me. My friends they all think I am an optimistic and postive
girl who is humorous and likes smiling and telling jokes (so conflicted
I am).But they don’t know what I am really going through.
Try not to get caught out thinking your not where you should be compared
to others- your exactly where you need to be… Working on you, for you!
Elders around me feel sorry for me but I never feel sorry for myself.
Everything has its reasons and I don’t incline to figure why this or
that. Submitting to everything that is happening and living a life of
excuses are easy to do. But I can’t, I can’t keep my eyes shut to all of
this.I have no choice but push myself to look forward after any security
pulled out. I have to work as hard as possibly I can no matter how mean
- 《甜蜜暴击》是由鹿晗关晓彤携手主演的青春校园剧，© 本文版权归作者